Oh Judah Wild,
Tomorrow it's been 5 months that you entered this big world.
That moment 5 months ago you bought back dreams in my heart, you filled me with purpose and watching you with your Dad pulls on my all my heart strings and I'm not sure how I'll cope. Being your Mama is what I was made for. I know it.
In those short 5 months, you've gone from being the wriggliest baby in the world to having moments of calm and loving your cuddles (which makes Mama super happy). You've learnt how to smile and smile big - you haven't quite grasped a giggle but your excited scream brings me all the joy. You roll so well it's dangerous to leave you for 10 seconds, you've started to slug a lot (lift up your bum and move forward) and I'm pretty sure in the next month we'll have a crawler on our hands. You love the colour red, which is my least favourite colour, but for you I allow it in my house.
You are so loved. Beyond words. Not just by us your parents, or grandparents and aunts and uncles and cousins (who love you dearly) but by friends, that we consider family. I've said it before, but you just bring joy everywhere you go. You've bought healing to friendships and to hearts, you've bought along a focus for me and for others. How can someone so little, so unaware, bring so much love.
Judah Wild, you are a dream and I love you more than words can ever explain. I used to argue with your grandparents as to who loved who the most, they definitely love me more - a parents love is HUGE and when you don't think it can get any bigger, BANG, there it expands.
I can't wait to see what your next month holds. As you grow into your 6-12 month wardrobe (say whaaaaaat) - I hope you look back at your baby photos when you're older and think I dressed you well. For 5 months you've done your fair bit of modelling for baby brands, most recently Turtledove London - shockingly I actually put you in some coloured leggings, but they were subtle and super cute so it's not all bad. Obviously, the rest is beautiful monochrome madness, which is timeless right?
You probably have more clothes than me now, and I never shop for myself anymore. But when talented people make such cute clothes like above, you can't blame me for falling for it and getting it for you.
Know that as your Mama, I will always fight for you and fight for the best for you.
Love you always and forever JW.