Mama, you're perfect..

We are in the season of Christmas & New Years parties, which fills me with dread. Don't get me wrong, I love a good party, I love dressing up, hanging with friends, eating, drinking, music - all of it. But this year, I'm having to embrace a different body. A body, that has grown a little human and been stretched, with the marks to show. 

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Letters to my baby..

As Judah turned 5 months I wrote a letter to him, which I shared on my blog for you to read to. Since the day he was born I have written him letters on the 16th of every month. Random scrap pieces of paper when I remember, scattered in his little box of memories (the first hat he wore, his hospital tag, the first polaroid we took..). I think the first few months of a babies life is when you see the most development, so documenting what he has learnt each month is important to me, to see how fast he grows, learns and develops. It's a crazy whirlwind of a time and we can easily get caught up in it all and not stop to reflect on how much they have learnt. 

Emily Rollings, a beautiful stationary company, created the Birthday Letters to my baby. And it is everything you might want and more. For those of us who love to journal and who love aesthetically pleasing items, this ticks all the boxes. I've actually copied out all my letters I've written so far into it, far neater and less likely to lose the random pieces of paper! Plus a beautiful gift to give to JW when he is older. 

As you know, I'm a huge fan of journals having designer our own DREAMER journal, Emily Rollings also has The Essential Planner.

Again, not only is it beautiful, but full of motivational hand lettered quotes, weekly spreads, calendar, goals section and much more. If you love journals and diaries, this is one for you!

Have a little look at her site, you're guaranteed to fall in love with something. We got these beautiful Christmas cards but she has many many more other cards and prints so have a browse and get shopping.

Remember, take time to reflect. On the development of your kids, on yourself, on your relationship. Life is so easy to get caught up in, especially when a million things happen to you at once, but give yourself 5 minutes. Leave the washing up, don't hoover, make the bed a bit later - have a little you time.

Jess & Judah Wild x

As seasons change..

I’ve been wanting to write about friendships for a while but not known how to.

I feel it’s something I have always battled with and looking back it’s not always because of bad friendships but more because of big insecurities and the challenge in change.

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Lion Pear..

"A lion pear?" I hear you cry..

Yes, a Lion pear, and the cutest lion pear there ever was! Created by the insanely talented and beautifully honest Naomi of "styled by Naomi" - you could get your very own little pear animal and get 15% off, just keep reading!

I came across Naomi over instagram whilst browsing during one of Judah Wild's many feeds and instantly fell in love with her beautifully curated feed. Then I started watching her insta-stories and LOVED her honesty (if you don't already, seriously get following..), which made me fall for everything she did more.
After seeing cute panda pears, unicorn pears and many other a pear being created and delivered to lucky people I decided it was time to get a little Lion pear. I contacted Naomi and asked if a little Lion would be possible. My reason for a Lion? Judah's name, Judah Wild Charles - Lion of Judah, Wild & Strong.
 Naomi quickly messaged back and it felt like I had known her for ages.. she just has that kind of personality that makes you feel at ease and like your besties even though you've ever actually met (or talked in person).. I gave her free range on the "creativity" of the Lion, I mean, she's the pro..and GOLLY GOSH I'm in love, so is Judah he just can't say the exact words yet, but that's totally what his arghhhhhs mean. I mean LOOK HOW CUTE!

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I'm not sure where to put it at the moment. To be honest, Judah's room is a MESS so I probably need to tidy first and organise and find a sweet little home for him. In the meantime he can sit in our lounge, so anyone who comes over can see it's cuteness!

FYI, she not only does cute little pears, but garlands and dream catchers, and if you prefer apples over pears, she doesn't dissapoint! And, I know it's the C word and we're literally just in October, but little animals and Christmas Baubles?! That's cute - and how lovely to have a babies first christmas remembered by a little animal bauble you hang on the tree each year?! Why not treat yourself or a loved one, use code DEFINEADREAM15 when checking out and get 15% off your entire order - what a treat!!
 

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Ohhhh and each item comes beautifully packaged so if you were thinking of getting one as a gift, like Christmas or a baby shower - you could send in confidence knowing that it's beautifully wrapped.

On that note, Judah and I are going to tidy his room - well Judah will lie and stare at his cot mobile (which we sell, which has launched TODAY!!) whilst I tidy up after him..what a life!

Keep your eyes peeled for next weeks blog cause we have a decent discount on a favourite brand of ours for you!

Jess & Judah Wild xx

 

GIVEAWAY..

3rd October, the day we launch our new products! Can't quite believe we have got here, creating and dreaming is hard work when your a mama, when do we have time?! When Judah Wild is sleeping I have an endless list of "to do" items and generally just wanna catch up on sleep myself but I feel somewhat empty when I'm not creating - so here's to an even busier life!

To celebrate our re-launch, we are doing a giveaway. You have the chance to win a cot mobile, journal and mama print - worth over £50! All you have to do is head over to my Instagram page, like the image, tag a friend you think would love to also win and start following @defineadream - competition closes October 3rd 21:00 (only open to UK).

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He's Got This - Shan Tong

‘He’s Got This’ could not sound more distant to me back in late 2016. As a logical, proof driven and sensible Christian, I have always looked at facts and the trueness of God. I am passionate about the cause and the truth. I would never imagine myself losing faith or questioning the realness of God, but little did I know, I was about to go on a spiritual war.

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I work as an analyst, having graduated with a Math degree. I am basically a geek, as the ‘cool’ kids called me. I'm known as a generous and funny person, and generally I'm pretty happy! However, at the end of 2016, my life was about to completely change when I encountered weekly and sometimes daily panic attacks, however at the time I did not know what it was, making me somewhat scared. 
These panic attacks came in different shapes and forms. Sometimes I felt sick, like I was being trapped in a room that I couldn't get out of. Other times I felt unloved, unworthy and useless. The worst attack got me contemplating to end my life, so I decided to take a stand even when the phrase‘He’s Got This’ was the last thing on my mind. 

Having panic attacks wasn’t just a one-time thing. I have always had them. I had them when I was younger, being bullied in school; in my last year of university, when I was trying so hard to get a 1st class honour, I just never thought too much of it. I have always looked at it as a ‘storm’ in my life. I believe that if I kept myself in church, kept serving the Lord, these things will pass. I kept telling myself I was being silly to ever feel panicked. Every Sunday I was reminded God loves me, Jesus died for me and I should know better than to just let myself feel down and alone. Oh how foolish was I to undermine the persistence of the devil when he decides to take you to war. Not only did he set up a battlefield at my work, but stole the health of a loved one. He was ready to take me down, striping me of my identity and most importantly, my faith. I soon realised that my ‘seasonal storm’ wasn’t just going to pass. The attacks were coming left, right and centre and I was drowning in an ocean where I God seemed invisible.

Every day I battle anxiety.
Mental illness can be a very lonely battle. For months, I was an unhappy, stressed out and tired person who was going through life living with mental attacks but wearing a mask. Planted in a big church, I could easily hide in the crowd. I had spoken to a few friends about how I felt, but never to the full extent of what I was feeling.  ‘Fake it till you make it’ was pretty much what I was doing.
As time went on, the attacks weren’t getting any easier. Often I just wanted to stay in bed because I felt sad. The struggles stopped me going to church, seeing friends and looking for support. Consequently I stopped worshipping, stopped reading the word and stopped reaching out for Jesus. Every day I got taken back by the tiniest tasks in life, for example, I panicked because I couldn't make the porridge how I like it, or I didn’t park my car in line. I would sit for hours at home if I could, just going through the why’s and the how’s. Life was on repeat. My faith slipping away from me. All I had time for was to hope I would get through another day.

It was late November. I just had my 26th birthday celebration at the weekend and I enjoyed myself. The next day I was having lunch in the park, I don’t remember what the trigger was, but I was hit by another panic attack. I'd had enough, I came up with the conclusion that if I were to end things now, I would no longer be in such a mess. I prayed to God, to ask for permission so I would stop feeling so overwhelmed. Then I heard Him, a voice I had been longing for for months, the awakening that I have been screaming for, ‘Enough!
I could not hear it clearer. I wiped my tears, walked back to the office, sat at my desk and googled ‘counselling’. I'm not sure what drove me to do that but I was determined to find someone who would listen to me, someone would will help me, someone professional. Sure enough, another hill stood infant of me. Apparently, winter months are very busy for counselling, most of the counsellors I found couldn't give me an appointment till late 2017, but ‘He’s got this’ - a lady named Gillian called me after I left her a voicemail and she said after she prayed about it, she wanted to know how she could help. I broke down in tears on the phone as soon as she finished her first sentence. This to me is no coincident, out of all the numbers I dialled, a Christian counsellor decided to give me an appointment.
In December 2016, I started my first counselling session. I walked into this lady’s office, not knowing what would happen. I sat on the sofa, in front of complete stranger and emotions just flooded me. I probably spent my whole session crying. I haven’t cried like that since year 7. At the end of that session, Gillian offered to pray for me. Gillian always prayed for the protection of the Holy Spirit over me, she said it is important that I know the Holy Spirit is around me, so subconsciously I know there is nothing to fear about these attacks. Since then, I have learnt more about myself. I learnt how my past shaped who I am and how Jesus was at every step of the way. Sometimes I came out of a session feeling relief, sometimes I feel I am on a mission to get better for the week and sometimes I walked out crying. However, we always prayed at the end of the session. It is in those prayers, I can sense the presence of God, He’s got this, and more importantly He’s got me. All the time, He’s got me. I was just focusing too much on drowning; on the battles ahead of me. I didn’t see He was hurting too when I was fed lies about myself. I didn’t see Him shouting His love for me when I was in bed feeling miserable. But He was always there, I just didn’t see Him.
Now in 2017, I have finished my counselling sessions, not because I am healed but I have found my identity again, and by the grace of God, I found my faith back.

Mental illness is going to be a long season for me; I have accepted that panic attacks and anxiety will be around me for a while. However I am more than equipped to deal with it now, I have learnt how to walk closely with God to manage them. I have learnt how to lean toward my friends even some who didn't know what I was going through so.
I am sorry that it has taken me so long, to be brave enough to tell my story, but if you too find yourself going through something like this, know that this is not forever. You too can walk away from it, and I hope one day you will enjoy this scripture as much as I do now. 
‘For once you were full of darkness, but now you have light from the Lord. So live as people of light!’ Ephesians 5:18.

 

Baby Mori..

This is one baby brand I'm obsessed with. Wolfe already has a number of outfits, muslins, blankets and sleeping bags from Baby Mori which you will no doubt see him in when he decides to make his appearance!

I think I like it so much because the colours are subtle, but not only that, everything is SO soft it's unreal. I can just imagine how cosy little Wolfie will be in the soft fabrics. Their items are made with organic cotton and bamboo, so in winter it will keep them cosy but in the heat of summer, also keep them nice and cool!

I get most of my Baby Mori products through Jelly Kat Kids Boutique, they're an online shop with many brands, they don't have all the stock though so you can go direct to Baby Mori to see all there stock and buy there as well.

I just wanted to share a couple of brands with you before baby is born (in the next couple of weeks!). You will see him wrapped in everything when he's born cllllllll over my instagram and in the blog I'm sure. If you don't already, make sure you give @defineadream a follow on instagram and Facebook!

JB + Wolfie xx